To my miscarried child, the first is always most treasured.

When I was 15 years old, I went through an event no woman should ever have to endure. My first baby, who was only in my womb for a few weeks was miscarried. When I first knew I was pregnant I was nervous and scared. I know they will forced me into abortion. So I kept my pregnancy news a secret as I was determined to keep my baby. I never tell the baby father about my pregnancy as his mom was against our relationship. We were both 15 years old back then. I was pretending to be normal until I was having some serious cramping and the next thing I knew, there was bleeding. "This can't be happening", I kept repeating to myself, unable to accept the fact that my baby was leaving my body already. I was emotionally broken and suffering a lot. Just wondering do miscarried babies go to heaven? I hope and believe that I'll see my baby someday in heaven. Just wanna let my baby knows that he/she is always in my heart. I love you just the way I'm loving Miyuki now.